Rest in Peace, Apple.

My grandparents' rabbit.

{posted on 9/21}

Back from Europe around 2 hours ago~

A part of me still haven't fully recovered from Fanime or dorm and still thinking 12 days ago. Then a part of me have drifted away back to 14th century as we visited the majestic artworks of Italian Renaissance. But before resonating back together, time has to stop right now for a silent prayer.



To dearest Kiwi, my sister's dearest rabbit, known to us all as our "Little Boy" of the family, Kiwi who departed from us on Friday June 6, 2008 around 1:40 PST. Our last family rabbit... Kiwi followed almost a year after Strawberry.

( Detail. )

So we left our lamenting, our initial tears behind in Rome, Italy. It's surreal, because we weren't present at his last minute (last days even)... and it's this guilt that eats us. What did Kiwi feel when we left him with our aunt and left the door for vacation?

We're all sad for the loss, but it is greatest loss for my sister. If you could give a word of condolence to her ►► here, I would be really grateful.

Tomorrow we go and pick his body up from the vet so we can bury him in our soil... In a way, I don't advice my sister to see his still body, because I remember how hard to bear it was to have Strawberry's body, to have the reality completely tangible, in my arms. But... at the same time, seeing the truth is the only way to accept it. At least Kiwi and Strawberry are together now.

I'll reply dA comments, emails, LJ, and write the Europe trip in a day or two very soon (over 1000 pics to sort out) after we recover and do laundry. Please look forward to it. Jet lag.

RIP Heath Ledger. T_T

So I'm back at dorm... after whining and running all over the place at home XD;

Ended up looking at HK printing services because it's so hard to find perfect binding services here.

Gah. Not looking forward to waking up at 7:30AM, which comparing to the holiday is an absence of 6 hours of sleep. S-SO vejiicakes I HOPE I'LL BE SEEING YOU TOMORROW.

Nvm. Will share again after scanning.

Saw from sweetmisery21 @ AarinFantasy

The news was posted in June's mail magazine

( Original Japanese text )

Translated by Reppu

The following is from the mail magazine. This was a very unfortunate death. Published in our magazine "Boys Love," the tremendously popular Tohjoh Asami, who we bragged about, has died of an illness. Comics include "Love Prism," which had a lot of support from fans and even became a drama CD, and whose reprinting is still continuing now. From now on, it's really a shame about the works that were expected to be announced.
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I read her XY, Yoiko no Sumu Machi, and of course Denkou Sekka Boys. It... just seemed like few months ago that she talked about retiring, but why did it have to come to this T_T

Rest in peace, Tohjou Asami. ♥

Oh yes, just came back from Uncle Wallace's memorial at a Chapel in Hayward.

( The Memorial )

Having two deaths within less than a month (July has been jinxed) is not good my tear glands. *sigh* x_x

My sis wants to go play arcades, so I better get ready now. Still, death makes everything else seem infinitely less important.

Just hear from my mom that my babysitter 姨姨's husband Wallace, who my sister and I -and everyone else they've babysitted before- nicknamed "Gougou," passed away last week from cancer. Apparently he was diagnosed few months ago. ONE WEEK AGO, dammit! It shocked me... because the Yao family has always been a very healthy family, yet the sickness hit even them. Why does death strikes so suddenly every time?

( memories )

Tomorrow is the Memorial, and the ironic part is that we actually wanted to invite both of them for lunch tomorrow too... I'll go and pay respects.

My heart goes out to 姨姨 and her daughter, who lost a loving husband and father after over 30(?) years. And everyone else, we lost a loving uncle and a good-hearted person in the world. Dear Uncle Wallace, who in my eyes had always been a person of wisdom and humility, may you rest in peace in Heaven.

July just hasn't been a blessed month.

It makes me ashame since all I've been doing is 無聊.

To Dearest Strawberry, whose nicknames are Big Fellow, Big Totoro [Chinese] due to her fur color, Silly Bunny, Ichigo, and more. Part of the family since April 2002 and departed from us today at 4:46PM July 13, 2007.

My Eulogy to Strawberry:

( Precious Memories )

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( What Happened Yesterday )

( Today, at the clinic... )

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I was tearing the whole trip back. Before burying Strawberry, I stayed in the garage, holding her stiff body that was wrapped in a towel against me, rocking and hugging her lifeless body, petting her fur, having my last moment with her. Dad went out to dig her grave, and Mom came out to offer me comfort. But all I did was cry harder. She loved the bamboo trees, so we found a box, laid her in it, and buried her right next to the bamboos. We marked her grave and sprinkled the surface with some of her favorite snacks...

The silence rung louder than anything in the house. I took a shower and cried until I fell asleep for a short while; but when I woke up, as I saw the empty cage, all the memories rushed back to me, and the cycle went all over again. My eyes are now beyond swollen. Today, I was supposed to go celebrate Grandmother's real birthday too...

God. I miss her, I miss her so much. I loved her with all my heart... We all loved her, our whole family. And although I knew one day she would leave us, I didn't think it would be so soon. Just like that... when she was still with us 6 hours ago. I miss her pawing at the cage for food. I miss her silly, happy face. I miss petting and scratching her to comfort. I miss seeing Kiwi chase her around.

At least... she is no longer suffering. If she had to be in that state for another few days, I'd rather it happened faster. But her last moment of struggle at the clinic will forever be imprinted in my mind.

Tomorrow... I have my WST exam, and I don't know what state of mind I'll be in. Life goes on, but for the rest of tonight, maybe even tomorrow... Just let me cry it all out. Strawberry, you'll forever be in all of our memories. Please rest in peace.

My roomie just called me, as I'm home now, that a student named Landon from our dorm and /our/ wing died last night in a car accident. The student that was with him, Ashley, had her jaw broken.

Not sure if alcohol is involved; probably is. 'twas a Thursday night, and many students go out.

I didn't know him personally, so I can't cry, but to have death so close by -living on the same wing- is a very scary thought... Either way, may his soul rest in peace. I pray for his family.

This is dedicated to my great grandmother (dad's side, also related to mom's), who passed away yesterday.

She's been handicapped and taken care in the senior center for over 10 years in Macau, but they have always said she's lively.

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親愛的阿太 (how I address her),

For these past 92 years, our family has always respected you. Although I have only seen you twice in my whole life - once when I was 4, and another when I was 13. You sent my sister and me little presents, simple things such as keychains, but they represented so much more because it was the link from you to us. I remember you cried when you saw how much we've grown, because you were the one who thought of our Chinese names. Without you, I wouldn't have had the name I have today. You'll always be in our hearts. I merely wish I could have seen you one last time... May you rest in peace in Heaven.

- 胡思敏
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