So this morning I had some sort of cheezy noir dream. These assassins/zombies were everywhere and it's almost like every person I came across on the street was an enemy. Suddenly they went after my family, which was totally unforgivable, and it was like me against the whole damn world. It felt so real and I was so happy to realize it was just a dream T_T Makes me feel like I actually want to have a weapon in hand just for defense purposes. When I woke up, it was 6:21AM, and I intended to sleep until 7AM and wake up for work. Somehow I woke up at 9AM and was late for work xD

Man, I rather continue working than go to class ;_; Playing around with Illustrator is so fun.

Okay... So I woke up remember a dream, something about cosplay and Mitsuwa and freeway. I remember someone saying, "Only a moron would wear a mask like that!" In which I went, "...Does that mean I'm a moron?" SKDFjdk wut XD? I certainly don't have any cosplay plans right now that involve a mask and a yellow costume. Oh well.

Digressing.

Current Spring 2008 schedule:

AAS 33B - Asian Am US Hist/Pol (TuTh 10:30AM - 11:45AM)
ART 51 - Intro 3D Animation (MW 8:30AM - 11:20AM)
ART 112A - Intro Illus/Animat (MW 12:30PM - 3:20PM)
KIN 53B - Inter Karate (W 7:30PM - 9:20PM)

Why the hell is Karate so LATE O_@;; Damn GE. I need 3 more units... So either I ask for approval for 112B, or I take either Java or Digital Media. Oh man. Seems like next semester is gonna be another killer one. DO NOT WANTS.

So my remaining weekend, I must accomplish the following:

- AAS 33A: At least start, or have half done, the paper (due Tues)
- ART 50: 1) Go to a vendor and ask about print/bind, 2) CATCH UP FUCKIN SKETCHES. I've met my doom.
- Karate: Er... practice, finish reading, so I can write paper. (WHAT KARATE CLASS NEEDS YOU TO READ AND WRITE, DAMMIT.)

Okay, better get going.

To F!List, I'll be mailing out Christmas cards. See this for more info. ♥

Lately I've been having rather... say, suspense-eque dreams.

Like, right now I just woke up because I dreamed of a soldier who recapped watching a young girl die in the most gruesome, bloody way until her face was gone. "I can never forget the image," he said. Kinda creepy. The ironic part is that I left my cellphone (my alarm) at home, and the dream actually woke me up on time.

Last week I also dreamed that I almost got eaten by a shark, and that's what woke me up on a 20-minute nap that prevented me from being late for class. XD; Weirdddddddd....

Pffft. I blame feeling the stress slowly piling on. Okee, class time.

Got links from wedlock ~ @ Firefox and @ Dark Side Rainbow. Poor Brad Fitzpatrick. He'd never meant for LJ to turn out like this.

@ the 2nd article... Harry Potter is a huge fandom. So I guess that makes it an exceptional danger territory XD;

Oh well. In short. This matter is ridiculous and blown out of proportion. I think I'll leave it alone. That's why ljArchive comes in handy~ Not completely in the mood to really rant much about it.

I do want to say that I joined LJ 2 years ago, abandoning my blog, because I liked the Friends-Lock. Now I wonder the liability of it if 6A is becoming such a pain in the ass about content, especially sexual ones in any remotely artistic way. Uh, hello? What's the purpose of a blog tool and "community" if people can't post what they want to serve the community >_>?

Other notes. Phpbb3 templates are a pain in the ass to modify.

Last night would be the 3rd or 4th time I dreamed Strawberry was still with us.

*off to family dinner*

Last night, I dreamed that we were able to go back in time, and we were able to bring Strawberry to the vet in time. She was still in my arms, alive, bobbing her head every direction. I dreamed we found out about her tumor in time; she was not impaired, but instead she hopped around the clinic room with the energy that was her. Then the doctor took her in... Her face was happy and her eyes were sparkling.

Yet, I never got to the part where she came back out from the room, and it was time to wake up. Not even the dream spared mercy and allowed me to see her healed in there.

This surreal, cruel merge -and border- of dream and reality. I never realized the power of loss has over dreams until now.

No matter what way I use to numb myself, waking up is like resetting time, and it resets the tears even though I thought I was dried from them already. Today this cycle happened on countless intervals... and I will still be chasing after her shadow whenever I see her litter box, her cage, her bowl, and whenever I see Kiwi.

This is the only way to be strong enough to deal with her death - face it straight on, no matter how many times of choking back tears and lamenting it'll take. Using something else to cover it up feels like dismissing the matter all together, and God I don't want that.

♥ Thank you everyone for the prayers and condolences, knowing Strawberry has reached others' hearts. For you all, for Strawberry, I will stay strong. Thank you again.

Weekend prioritized to get projects/finals done. = =+ English final tmr.

Thanks for all the comments in the previous journal. I think the case is sort out now... We plan to pay out of pocket, though, the damage is pretty expensive. *sigh* Am repenting by suspending myself from good food. No Tapioca Express. No off campus food. No spending unnecessary money. T3T

To answer kimi_kuma, my bloodtype is lobster AB+ ♥ Apparently it's the "split personalities" and the least common of the types. I knew it! When I read the traits for each bloodtype (Japanese concept), I debated over A and AB... but I am not a perfectionist, nor am I always calm (*panics* T3T), which are the traits of A. Wow. These things can actually be accurate? etherealdark, I'm a "vampire" like you XD Aka, universal receiver. And wai, same as Seki XD ♥

Email from FanimeCon:
( Email )
My one-year old Ouran AMV made it. *gulp* Unlike last year. Hmm. Something to look forward to finally at Fanime. Makes up for the art table-lessness. Yeah, can't prepare at all. Have to finish commissions. *will be gone 5/31 to 6/10, so...*

What else? Oh. Yesterday I dreamed I was in high school frosh year again, only it's my college self in my HS body. So it's like... no one knows who I am, but I know who they are. Strange dream. o.o

Finally, snagged from a random journal:

How Girly Am I? Meme

( More )

For English, we are reading the book In Cold Blood, a nonfiction documentation of a real murder case that happened, and surprisingly enough I like the book. Yesterday I read until my eyes grew weary ≡_≡ And then our assignment is to write a fanfic ghost chapter based on what we read (due Weds.). Problem is finding a gap to work off of. Maybe I will write about Perry's messed up life :X

Anyhow, one part particularly interested me. ( As much as I didn't want to, I cut the scan and commentary anyways because I understand English bores a lot of people. Though, it is interesting stuff. ▼ ▼ )

.....OKAY. And must stop feeling so deeply from just lines of words. *stabs self*

Anyhow, I finally updated my art site after months of silence. And a quick update for P-D.net (I swear, it really needs a new look.) That's it. Must pay more attention to my sites... I think I'll claim full possession of P-D.net now since my sis seems to have fully neglected it anyways. :|

Also, ethe@dA is my new coloring/illust god(dess) ♥_♥ It is scary to read that she lives local in San Jose. And... seeing how dedicated and ambitious mushroomtale and kitmun and everyone else is, I really have to try a lot harder in improving ><; Class input is just not enough. Must clear this damn to-do list. And... I will soon return to foruming.

I guess ending on an amusing note, two nights ago I dreamed about treasure hunting, flying, and out of nowhere I met Miyata and two other seiyuu (wasn't sure who they are, but one of them could have been ItouKen) o_0;; I dreamed something else last night too... though I forgot what it was.

Sleep.

GAHHHH. Am finally done ♪ Even though I should have been doing English reading. Goku's OC contest entry: Shen & Edriel. I still think the coloring could have been better... argh, how could I have brought the tablet but not the pen home? シクシクシクシク Therefore most of the background was done by mouse. +_+;a Can cross this out from my to-do list now. It ended up as 188MB.

OT: Now this was highly unexpected. There is actually a gasp!English fic for MasaKurou: here. Very spoilers-filled from Izayoiki (but I asked Kate to spoil them a while ago since I can't play it, so it didn't come as a surprise for me.). But still, the piece was so sweet and well-written (although angst filled), and it gave me a better scope of them outside of spoilers :33~ ♥

I dreamed that someone broke into our house while taking a nap today. *KNOCKS ON WOOD* Too many weird dreams lately.

Went to the eye doctor today. Dr. Sakihara is as sweet as ever~ And.. still 20/20 vision.

My comp at home is really getting more and more retarded. I can log on MSN on every computer in the house but my own. It hates me, or it's about time it upgrades to XP. Every other thing on it has been acting strange. ^^;;

( Maddy came over to visit, and we dressed up and were retards. )

( Nightmare yesterday T_T )

But... for a much lighter note.

Just watched Shimatani Hitomi's Crossover II performance. Oh God. I totally fell in love with her singing all over again. At some points, for some reason I almost wanted to cry. Maybe I was so touched because her vocal was just... so amazing. The tracklist itself was golden, and the actual thing was as magical as I thought. When she performanced kuon, Soushun, Mona Lisa, koimizu, etc, I died. ♥_♥.......... I want to order the DVD now. Alas, after getting the Haruka Matsuri and fabrics, I'm kinda restricted. *SOB* But I will. I must *cry from soul*.

I have no sample at the moment other than her Destiny performance. So if any one wants a sample, feel free to grab. In my opinion, it isn't her best performance in the concert, but it's Destiny! ♥ Still beautiful vocals.

[sendspace]

Just woke up from a nap. Got my top-left and bottom-right teeth, only wisdom teeth, taken out.

( Cut for the experience of the surgery )

It was kinda funny. As soon as I woke up, I started hiccuping nonstop for the next 30-ish minutes... on the intervals (I counted!) of 10-13 seconds. So that's like over 200 hiccups. After I drank some water, it automatically stopped.

So now, while the right corner of jaw is aching as hell, hence can't open the jaw too widely, my top-left gum stings worse (that side bled more too). Ice packing. For tonight I cannot eat anything warm or hot T_T everything has to be COLD. Harhar, I want to eatttttttttt.

( So. Yesterday I had a nightmare. )

On the side note, Xmas cards will be printed out tomorrow! ♥ And I happily installed the CashMod and Protect Content Mod on ST.com's Forum! Hope members will make use of those features.

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Stolen from wing

Here's a small meme thingy (for others to fill in), please feel free to answer the questions if you have time or want something to do. For art reference, please go to my dA account.

1) What artist(s) do you feel my art style resembles? Why?

2) What writers(s) do you feel my writing style resembles? Why? (Haven't written enough.)

3) If someone asked you to describe my art style to them, how would you describe it?

4) If you had to pick something out as a trademark element of my style, what would it be?

5) If you could make me draw a comic in any genre, what type of comic would you want to see from me? Why?

6) If you had to guess who/what my 5 biggest inspirations were when I was learning to draw who/what would you guess they were? Who/what would you guess now?

7) What would you like to see more of from me in the future?

♥ Footer until 12/1: Those who missed it, I'll be mailing out Xmas cards. LJ Friends Only. See this for more info. ♥ Whatever, it's 2 hours after 12/1. One last time. XP

Edit: comp is fixed. // I've been trying to be diligent and catching up readings studying for my Anthropology midterm. But I need to do Art History reading log today/night.

I had 3 dreams yesterday, quite AU, involves certain ML characters (Why?!), and then I got stabbed in 2 of the dreams. How pleasant. x_X Not shot, but stabbed by knife. *knock knock*

As I simultaneously did a bit of my Creative W. homework, I thought of an idea once again unintentionally for Kuruizaki's Tomomasa fanfic contest, but I've never entered a fanfic contest before... soo... not sure how to carry it out. And if there is time left. Bweh, 2 days?! O_O

On Friday, I sat on BART for 3-4 hours for Anth. project, which was pretty amusing. And then shahni and I met up to be yummyball team dorksters again~ :D ♥ Sadly I spent more time/energy at Jtown w/ Shahni than I did on the project XD;

Oh yes, I was looking at the LJ senior staffs, and it amuses me to know one of them is actually a young student at Academy of Art University. @D@ *misses it so much*

Happy Independence Day for those who celebrates it!

Today I woke up at 2 PM again... and had the strangest dreams. I remember a few.

One had to do with some kinda... er...threesome(?) between the three T's in Harukanaru 1. That was pretty random. If anything, I've been looking at Haruka3 pics recently, not 1. Not only that, but the character choice in the dream was random too. Can't say it wasn't kinda sexy though.

Next had to do with Yang Guo and Xiao Long Nu from Return of Condor Heroes having a daughter, but someone stole her away from them. THAT was random too. I finished watching the series over a week ago, but still. I can only say Yang Guo almost gone mad...

Then another was this... haunted restaurant? The Chinese restaurant was empty, and a few of us went in, realizing the source was the kitchen. The kitchen apparently leads to some dimension warp, and at a distance, you can see these female ghosts dressed in white. At first we think they're not real, but as I approached them, they can extent their neck and bite T_T There were lots of them too.

And finally, the last dream was... haha. Someone said I "have to still be a minor". Whee.

Too random. Okay... gotta go and work on drapery project. Dammit I wanted to CG(!!!). I have no clue how to place the cloth. gRRrr.

Hey'll, ohisashiburi ^^ er... sort of.

I'm at school in yearbook right now, and I have absolutely no work to do since I finished my spread already. So just taking the time to ramble about stuff. I'll change subject

First of all, I have to shout out to TEH khuzay XD!!!!!!!!! OMG I received your package, and you are the sweetest, chicka! There was a cute teddy bear in there, a rose that doesn't play music (cuz I didn't put batteries in), yaoi manga Skyscrapers of Oz (*_*), and her lovely card! Happy belated Valentines Day, dear! Hope you and Dayna and Rosie are doing fine ♥

Ano, let's see... Rinoa and I talked on Saturday in regards of moderation in the Crossover forum. I must say, it felt so different talking to her through chatting. We definitely shed away that formality we use in the forums and talk casually. ^^ I admire her admin skills definitely. Within just one month, she put in so many new functions in the forum! And she really responds to members' ideas... Hopefully I'll do justice as her helper. We talked about what type of contests we can hold (prizes will be from YesAsia.com) and also deletion of 0-post members. I love the forum so much.

ACK! TOMORROW IS DEADLINE FOR kitmun's Saiyuki doujinshi submission. I didn't even start on it yet T____T *CRIES CRIES* Gah, must do a quick one... the worst feeling in the world is regret. Man, I had an idea too... Kidchan-jie, sorry if I can't make it.

Gomen nasai kaitou370 about yesterday. Under circumstances I had to leave the comp >.< So sorry to have made you worry! Ano, I have watched MLW ep.6, and gah, the cliffhanger is so evil ;_; You know... Elmund (still don't know how to spell his name) seemed more sinister in ep.5 than this one. He actually seemed rather nice in ep.6. What thing did cross my mind though. Leohart stole all of the tall genes. XD!!! Although Lui acts as if it doesn't matter to him, I think he really is worked up about it.

Hmm... before I forget the idea, I had a vision of a Orphe/Ed pic to do. I would like to make it AU Greek mythology... although, I do not know what characters to make them as yet. That part, I have to research, but it might be really elegant. Somehow the image of them as Greek myth enchants me.

I had a strange dream a night ago that I got sweeped off by a reaper. It was scary. Actually, it could have been a haunted house. *shudders*

Okay, it's almost end of class.

Hmm I wonder is break making me lazy o_o I would usually rant all I want on LJ. Man... my holiday block started already, this is bad ;;^^

Well anyways, yesterday was my Mom's birthday, and my aunts came over to celebrate with her. Our present for her is this cake because we know she loves Doraemon~ I think Doraemon's my childhood hero XD Isn't this cute! And yeah, that's my dumb shadow on the bottom. The other cake was brought by our aunts.


Ano... last night, I have these weird dreams. I don't even recall them at all. x__x I only know I had around 5 of them... and one of the first ones made me cry very hard. I'm positive I half-woke up to cry for a while before falling back to sleep... think it had to do something where I was pranked at very badly -_-; One of my biggest fear - to be center of attention and be embarrassed by a large group. *sigh* I hate to cry from dreams..although I do believe dreams mean something. And then I dreamed some other bizzarre ones that such as meeting someone (Id rather not mention that person) and er.. don't remember what else. They just made me go "...what the HELL just happened?"

I am so addictive to the Saiyuki fic If It Were Only This Easy by one of my favorite authors ever Crimson *___* I even got rady addicted to it. Man, I really admire Crim's writing style... she can get everyone in character, have a good story plot nailed down, and keep the readers hooked. I'll be staying up all night reading it ^_^;; GO READ IT IF YOU ARE A SAIYUKI FAN! Pairings: 39, 58, and lots more.

I have also chat with zukkii today, waaah I miss her! So nostalgic from AX >_< And korilin, who I WANT to meet at AX! Ganbaru on your commissions >:3 And ZOMG Alex is on since.... /ages/, and then he suddenly popped up on AIM. It was cool, quite shocked ^^; hehe, talked about break, peers, school aftermaths, and he still remembers my Seki obsession since he found out in sophomore year. GOOD JOB, Alex XD!

And finally, a meme stolen from scrimmshaw XD It's quite amusing!

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you think?
Ahhhh GET AWAY~~!

2. How much cash do you have on you?
-_-; wallet? uh... 3 dollars. Sadly.

( More random meme questions )

... Suddenly my inbox is spamming with old LJ emails that I should've received 2 weeks ago... strange... oO

Ne, today when I napped (I am so dependent on afternoon naps these days.. it's quite sad) and woke up, I had such a... strange dream. First scene I was in this building trying to run away from some.. er... stranger. I flew off *sweatdrops* And then the next scene is the scary part. Somehow it ended up in this... huge court room... who knows why...there were many levels of stairs.. but the strange thing is that, when someone came into the court room, he got shot. And then another guy, I'd rather not name him -fear of jinx-, came in... and.. he tripped and well, he broke his neck, and the result was a mess. Obvious twisted joints, bloody pile, hearing the cracks, hearing his last ahhs as he fell... if anything, I hate seeing mutilations like that!!!!! I don't even know why I dreamed that, all I know is that I was immensely terrified... started tearing for all that matter when I woke up. I'm not THAT messed-up I swear! Er.. or I hope not. Weird dream... *shudders* If dreams are premonitions, I pray that doesn't happen at all >_> I highly highly doubt, but hey, future is all about uncertainties...

And...

I have a damn paper to write right now!!!! *GOES TO WRITE* Ack... I'm so behind in my homework. And shit, finals are next week. Greaaaaaaaaaat. My working habits are going down the drain.

OH OH! Waahh http://majinthing.deviantart.com plugged my dA （；・∀・）♥!! *goes frantic* Honor desu...

T_T Why is coloring realism with prismacolor pencils so HARD?

For AP Art, I'm trying to do a self-portrait... looking ugly right now.

SO hard to get skin tone and texture right...

Wah... kitmun jie~ I want to color with colorpencils as well as you!

I'm doomed. *flops on floor* My right hand is burning from the coloring.

I'm regretting taking AP Art. Should have made senior year as relaxing as possible. Darn school.

Btw, yesterday I dreamed I got preg and had a child o_O *gasp* Again, I see dreams as premonitions... and then today, the first thing I read for Wicked is of a pregnant wife. I know it could be just mere coincidence and all, but I just can't HELP but to feel mystic about having some six sense or something....

WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO MY GINGKO PETITION T_____T?! I emailed them but NO reply!! *sigh* I bet the fake Gingko is laughing at me right now... seeing how victory seems to be on her side. *sob*

Like icon? It is the collab of Centi and me! Her coloring is SO vivid and pretty... ;_; I need to find time to color her sketch(es) because they're just damn beautiful... And, OC-di (ototo-kun) said we can start collabing, and he will color ~ The drawing will be him and me walking as chibis! *giggles* Wah... so many of my little siblings on deviantArt are waaaaaaaaay more talented than yours truly. ^^()

*giggles* Tagged by kitmun, so here we go ¦D

( Seven things... meme thingie :D )

Ano... yesterday I had a dream. I...dreamed that I kissed a girl on the mouth... and apparently I initiated it to prove I can kiss o_O;;;; Don't misunderstand... I am not at all grossed out, but it's because I treat dreams as sort of uhm.. premonitions. I mean, after having a few dreams coming true, I can't help but form mystic beliefs about them. 夢の中。。誰とキスしてた。。。私O_O;;;？Hmm.. maybe it's the period playing with my head. Tummy has been being retarded today. But... if this dream does mean something, I want to find out what.

Read a cute little Side B RanKen fic yesterday called Lazy Morning ^^ *am going to c/p the review* SO adorable! ^_^ I'm very grateful that there's a Side B fic like this floating around... and on RanKen nonetheless! They're written  in a playful romantic manner.. and the fic also covered that sense of nostalgia they still might feel about their former family Weiss, Ken's nostalgia in particular. It's a really cuddly and sweet fic. *nods* Very in character as well.

I have a few thematical ideas for some artworks for AP Art... 1) obsession, 2) rebellious, 3) failure... now if only I can find a good way to present them! Dunno what's more of a headache.. finding an idea.. or finding a way to put them on canvas... another is avoiding clique. *sigh* Ano... drawing characters (comic, or fancy term "sequential art")... and drawing conceptual art are two entirely different approaches. What have I gotten myself into @_@? Ah well, I think I should take it on as a new challenge. I am.. starting to get a little hang of acrylic paint. Just a little though.

College applications!!! Such a slacker I am. Gomen... I'm going to continue to post..to remind myself that I have to do them... and do my personal essay ^^; Should start soon. *bonks head* DEMO! My AP English grade when from C to B- :D! And instead of a F... I got a C for my AP Calculus test! To some people's standards, they still don't sound acceptable, but I am grateful they went up at all.  Haha, I had a conversation with Alex today, and he thought I was still one of those that complain at an A-. I laughed and said, "no, I'm not my sister". Nowadays, I am not asking for too much... because I realize the more I ask for, the more gets taken away, the sum of life. Even if it's just a little bit of improvement, I learn to be relatively content.

I am sad because well, Ms. McGeever critiqued my so-far finished AP Art artworks. And well, I received some pretty critical comments back. Some areas weren't working, and some aren't polished enough. The landscape that I did "looked nice, but somehow it doesn't quite qualify as AP yet..." The only positive feedbacks I received were about my technical skills, but about ideas and conceptual thinking, I haven't.

( AP Art Paranoia )

On the other hand, Ms.Fullerton and Ceil (Lifetouch rep) liked the yearbook cover design, and so it's pretty finalized! Today I was talking to Ceil about what kind of material should the book cover be, matte or glossy, foil and/or emboss, etc. It is so cool... my cover design is going to be printed into 900+ copies of yearbook throughout the school...and kept on the school shelf as long as it exists O_O Very honored, but kinda scary.

I think the angst kind of messed with my head today, because I actually cleaned and tidied up my room, feeling like I need to do something useful and productive. (I have no more room on my shelf for manga T_T! School books and DVD cases occupied the space...) But uhm, in the afternoon while doing math, I accidentally napped, and I dreamed two angst dreams (and you think stresses don't project themselves through dreams). What's funny is that my mom half-woke me up, but although I heard her voice, the dreams still rolled on. I first dreamed that Ayumi had a brother, and something happened to him due to some sort of disaster, so she was crying. But heck, everyone knows Ayu doesn't have a brother! That was strange. Anyways, the next was an Apocripha/0 one... (Omg, I haven't done any fandom work for A/0 for so long! I feel soo bad...)

( Apo/0 angst Dream (Jade/Sapphirus) - I really should write a one-shotter when I have time )

What cheered me up is that Kind des Schicksals ch.24 updated, and ch.25 supposedly will be up by tomorrow night! The final battle has started, and the Rosenkreuz agents from Gluhen appeared! It feels so cool how Weiss, Schwartz, and Crashers members come in such /good/ terms with each other. And I love Shioshiro so much *sob* The fic is going to end on Saturday T_T But but but, it is so cool! Crimson-sama encouraged me to write a "ficlet" on my RanKen "Ken, You're Drunk" fanart, and if not, she might attempt! Gahh, it would be so cool! Hmm... inspirational.

*gasp* Tomorrow's my senior formal pic......

First things first...... HUGE PLUGGIE TO kyraensui *___________* You have no idea how surprised I was when Kyra first told me that has prepared a gift... and that gift was CosmoX VHS and Voicelugger Seki action figure! *DIES* horaaa~! 本当に本当にありがとうございました！！^▽^* I will watch it in the weekends. Can't wait to see Seki in action! Not only did Kyra surprised me with that... but also... she wrote me a fluff RanKen fic: Winter's Heart, Love for All Season! I'm a sucker for saps... especially after seeing Side B scans and see how canon happy they are, it's hard not to. ARIGATOU once more!  I really can't thank you enough *frantic*

Must buy Side B at Kinokuniya... and I'm going with shahni this Saturday to there too *___*! ARENT WE DANGONEECHAN? Quote-n-quote, "fangirl day part 2" ^^ I am laughing so hard at Ken's attempt to speak English: "A...ai bekku yua paadon?" XD Man, if we hear that in a drama, that'd be priceless. AND KEN IS CLINGING ONTO RAN.

Okay... yesterday night, I dreamed again and cried again - this time, I'm more certain about it, because I actually woke up. The dream has to do the fact that I got stomped on in AP Art... actually, yesterday, I went to buy $60 worth of art material - acrylic paint sets, 3 canvas boards, watercolor paper, a paint book, and brushes. I was so paranoid about AP Art, afraid that I won't qualify for the class projects, so paranoid I won't have enough of the supplies.

( My Dream Scenes )

Man, I read about people crying in their dreams, but I never knew it can be this bad x_x; Fear and Grief are two strong emotions.. "playing off each other", quoting from Marty.

But actually, I am less fearful of AP Art now. Observing from their projects, it seems my level can match up with Melanie's and Kim's, maybe even better! I will try to do better! Actually, today I started listing out ideas for my make-up summer homework. The only problem is deciding which media and when to do it. And Ms.McGeever is NOT how she sounds in my dream - it's only how I fear she'll be ^^; At the moment, school isn't stressful yet (except for English). What is stressing is the SATs T_T; I suck at them, and I need to do well by December. THEY ARE SO EVIL. Not good at Math and English... tohohoho.

Oh oh! Aaron introduced us to Sarah (how many Sarah's do I know..?) who is an exchanged student from Germany at our school!! *__* She is so cool and friendly, and I love her accent. She plays soccer, tennis, and has interest in football. The very funny thing is when she asked us if Aaron was single, because she thought he was gay XDDDDD Sarah (ballerina sarah), Chris, and I were laughing so hard. Yes, Aaron is loud and a perv and a womanizer and loves to act touchy among everyone and loves to fight... but that was too much. *laughs still* I wished I talked to her more.