I skipped 113A class in the morning today to sleep because I stayed up all night to write my essay on the film Crash. Either I go zombie, or I save my sanity. Somewhere deep inside I kind of regret going to Frank Gladstone's lectures, as that could've been two FREE work days... but then another voice argues back cuz his lecture was so worthwhile and educational. But... there are only 24 hours in a day. Now everything's pushed back.

Oddly enough, the professor "love the theme" of the essay when she looked through it. So weird. I thought it would suck because everything was last minute. I'm beginning to think that cramming an essay the night before it's due is like taking LSD to write good lyrics.... or something.

B-but... once again, something Milkjelly plugged. EHEHEHEHHE. ► ► Memes A La Brawl

Among the many other cracks, the three swordsmen dance to "Dragostea din tei" on the plane ship!!!!!! (starts at 1:18) Marth + Link + Ike + Numa Numa = EPIC WIN. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ They're dancing using the taunts of Zelda, Falco, and Samus. THANK YOU, hackers. XD SO CUTE... especially when they're using Zelda's taunt. *huggles the three* (＊ﾟ∀ﾟ＊) The other highlight in the video was a TMNT reference "heroes in a halfshell - turtle power!". Actually, all of the user's videos are worth watching.

And I'm still giddy over SPN4x03's name origins... Deanna XD

Okay, art28 and B+W rendering now. I need sleep (´д｀) I want to watch fall series too...

On the more serious note in terms of apartment issues, well, I rather not go there. It seems like they're finally starting to take a hint, but I don't know if it's just because of midterm week... I LIED. She can go to hell for all I care.

.....took over 3 hours just to build this thing for my school's anime club website... -_-; as officer... have to do it.... baaah... because Tanya just emailed me it was due on Friday.

http://promised-dream.net/animeclub/

well... good enough for now. Now I'm worried about Open House who will show up.

*tired*!!!!

Geez. And I was going to continue to write my Personal Statement too...yeah, still not done because I've been stumped since forever. Everyone has such... dramatic personal experiences... and good factors of motivation... I feel I have nothing strong enough to match up with their stories. x_X Kinda mixing up between academic preparation and personal experience... Screwed.

Just scanned 15 baby pictures. Tiring, but they're adorable!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gah... babies and kiddies are so cute.

Random Weiss Kreuz muse:
Weiss's member name initials spell O.K.A.Y :DD! Cool, from youngest to oldest members...
If we use Ran... then we can spell... Y.O.R.K! Ano... what whitty comment... I see RanKen together.

Staring off space does that to you.

..Okay.. call me stupid, but yesterday I got lost, so Christy and I weren't able to go to Mitsuwa Supermarket T__T My dad was very disappointed in me, and I was self-bitching myself too. It was just... I mean, maybe Christy didn't really mind that we weren't able to go, but I took it as failure. I mean... we were supposed to have fun in Kinokuniya and the Ramen house, but instead, we go back to her house to watch movies. It was embarrassing asking a woman, who came from Georgia too, for the right directions back to the Freeway... and it was also embarrassing tearing in front of Christy. Le sigh.

Hence... we ate Subway... and went to Blockbuster to rent movies. We rented The Grudge to watch, and I rented the Phantom of the Opera and Constantine. Yes yes, The Grudge has been out for a while, and I just watched it now. BUT I'M NOT MADE FOR HORROR MOVIES T__T Dude, yesterday I had such a hard time sleeping... because my senses were all awake, and the images of the movie were still playing in my head. I feared the shower and feared dark places... and became paranoid at any little noises. THAT'S why I play loud Jpop music during shower and turn the volume as loud as possible. The silence scares me too much. But then Christy said creepily, "...What if the music and lights suddenly turned off?" I went, "WAHH STOP >___<;;;!!" She also watched the Japanese version of The Grudge, and it is 2x as scary. WAH T_T; I was hiding behind a sofa pillow while she was watching with eyes open. I'm such a chicken. I'd prefer watching hentai over horror movies! Okay.. maybe not really.

I had to look at manga, read tons and tons of BL fanfictions, and listened to songs in order to deviate my thoughts from the movie. Oh yes, think about seiyuu! *nods* That really helped! But suddenly I started thinking... NE queenofbatpig! I have a storyline for the seiyuu anime now! They're in a haunted house, and the anime should show how each seiyuu would react! *giggles* I am sure Seki, Koyasu, Hoshi, Ishida, Miki, Nao-kun, Okiayu, Morimori, etc they all will have different reactions! Oh God, this is good seiyuu fanfic material ♡___♡

So anyways... EVERYONE GO HEAR Natalia-san's English version of Ayu's "Heaven" ♡!! Gomen nasai, Natalia-san.. I really have to flaunt it.. it's just too beautiful for words. She wrote the lyrics, and she has such a beautiful voice. *shoves her own karaoke away in shame* Haha, and she also wrote English lyrics to "No Way to Say", and I have volunteered to... try to sing it. It will take a while to master *sweatdrops* But it does seem fun... the lyrics she wrote are so pretty "No Way to Say", and it is about unrequited love and regret. Yay, angst!

Ano... for AP Art, I'm working my way to catch up works and generate ideas... I think I realize that what's holding me back is not that I can't generate the ideas, but I'm afraid to use medias I'm not familiar with. In this case, paint and pastel I am totally not used to. I'm afraid to experiment, thinking that these experiments have to be perfect and knowing they won't be. And because of that, I would feel like I wasted time on something that turns out to be a failure. But on the other hand... I will never know until I actually start painting on canvas. I will continue to observe Felia-chan's works, since they're so refined.

Oh yes!! For Essay as Lit, I changed my argumentative topic to "violence in video games and children" *giggles* I am taking the stand that video games should not be blamed for children's aggressive behavior. I found this topic a lot easier than "file-sharing debate". Yesterday I was talking with mastressalita, and the discussion really helped me on showing where I am standing. Interestly she used H-games as example ^^b And then we also discussed about next week's Sunday meeting, because she's coming for Yaoi-Con! Wah.. but my mom threatened me, if I don't have my UC essay draft done, I can't go visit her T_T

Man, I really need to get working. It's 8:55 PM.

...two days of sleeping at 3 AM or 4 AM in a row...is not the funnest thing. I mean, it is, if you are procrastinating and don't have any homework. But that's not the case *sweatdrops*

On Sunday night, I stayed up until 3 to PAINT. Not including shower and dinner.. I still spent 7 hours on it. It is funny though, the first half of the day I was still complaining that I had no ideas on what to do, and suddenly inspiration just kicks in at 6 PM. VOILA (gomen for the bad quality)! It's my school, and remember I said it has to be exaggerated somehow? Well, the idea came to me just around evening. It looks amateur, but hey! It's one of my very first attempts in acrylic! Spazzed and fangirled with shahni, misss_vampire, and korilin that night *LAUGHS*

Squee~ and Ms. McGeever liked it!! She liked how I used the complementary colors of orange and blue (even though I didn't even know that..) and the shapes of dark and light. The only bad thing is that I didn't gesso over the canvas board.. so the textual still shows. I'll fix that XD; Hahaha, that night I was so high. It's what inspiration does to you, it fuels you like crazy...

Next AP Art project is to do a lino print with some sort of political statement in it. Abortion is overused, so I won't do that. Hmm... gay rights and gay marriage? (because I have gay thoughts LOL) I would have done the hurricane Katrina, but Kim's doing that already. Any better suggestions? There's actually tons of issues out there... because America has issues. *laughs* Okay, lame humor.

Last night, I stayed up for doing Econ and Calculus homework. *SOB* I didn't even know there was an Econ test today! Waah... totally BSed it. And calculus just confused the hell out of me. We're on velocity and acceleration now... wish I took physics. It would've helped. Le sigh. But I spent most of the time revising my English texual analysis essay.. and OMG I love Ms.Steeb *_____* She is the BEST ENGLISH TEACHER EVER! She's so sweet and motherly when she speaks to you, and even when my paper sounded hopeless, she twitched it so that I am able to fix it, and I actually have a better idea of what I am wanting to say. And it is so cute! In the homework site, she rambles while giving our homework, such as "blah blah blah blah blah blah (OK, OK. I'm done...)" and "Now get some sleep."

Oh! It is also so cool! Yesterday when I gave Christy a ride back home, we were talking about manga, because we were on the topic of art. And she told me she frequently reads BL manga too! She said they intrigue her more than BxG manga, because they are always so clique and easy to predict, but she reads them anyways. What surprised me the most was that series she often read contain H material *gasp* You know, Christy, you surprise me to no end (no really, she's a very flowery person O_O;)! But BxB manga has been out in HK for so long now, she was surprised when I told her that it is only recently that America licensed BxB manga. We were fangirling and agreed that forbidden love is the strongest love >=3

Now the sucky thing: I AM KEEP FORGETING TO BURN BLEACH FOR ANIME CLUB. AND SAT:I THIS SATURDAY. I'M DOOMED. STILL HAVEN'T STARTED MY COLLEGE ESSAY WITH 2 OTHER ESSAYS IN THE WAY. *deflates*

First of all, why is Rich Text mode not working?

Anyways... uhm... Fake OVA is making me laugh really really reaaaaaaaaallly hard!!!!!! God, the casts are awesome, and Seki makes the silliest pervy honest loud Dee. *cracks up* Finished the 7 books, they are shoo cute and yummy.

I talked with Sara on irc yesterday, planning about this year's Ycon (actually, outside of Ycon) meeting at SF. She introduced me to her two other peers, and funny enough I saw Shahni there *giggles* I must ask my parents about the meeting. It'll be a whale of time this year, I can feel it already! Stupid I misunderstood some stuff they said *cough*, especially when it was a sexual question. Because I'm wise that way.

*SQUEAL*!!!! Shimatani Hitomi's new coming album "Heart & Symphony" is coming out in 10 days!!! I can't wait to get it!! The sample files are up on the official site... OH MY GOD. BEAUTIFUL. It is most definitely a promising album, probably her best album yet. As Quaoar in the Crossover forums said, "Depth, maturity, great songs and one of the finest voices on the planet."

Effin English texual analysis essay!! *FUMES* I can't talk crap about the story. Dude, it's just that... I have a feeling of what I want to say, but when it comes to writing it down on paper, I just can't. It gets clogged in my brain, and even if I stomp, scream, sob, punch, pull my hair out, break a wall, bash my head into the wall, it still doesn't help.

Yesterday, I was fully annoyed at Olivia and Grace and their constant flirts with their boyfriends. I mean, it's alright and stuff, but when it comes to the point where they interfer with the Gu Zheng lessons, I'm really to blow :) They were far from being serious about playing and it pisses me off they are being so disrespectful to Zhao Laoshi. Always gonna have to be missy serious in the trio... if it's a trio any longer.

Went to the SF Art Museum today, but the BART was so late! Didn't have time to do good sketches and take a look around the museum. *sob* Speaking of art... I need to start doing the painting tomorrow. The fantasy picture. It's actually due last week already. EEp, my creative brain has not hit home..

Okee, I want to go and watch the Fifth Element movie now!... Actually, I should sleep. Tomorrow busy and brain torture.

Stolen from zukkii:

10 Reasons Why Gay Marriage is "Wrong"

1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans (and Brits/Sweds/Canadians) always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Brittany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America (and Britain/Sweden/Canada).

9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans

Please post this in your journal if you are for gay marriage.

LOL I decided to split the last entry because I'm a dork that way.

Just cried ballistically at first because I didn't know how to fix my AP English texual analysis essay. We are writing on Lynne Sharon Schwartz's "The Trip to Halawa Valley". Apparently even I wasn't clear what I wanted to write about... that doesn't help much does it. But being stuck on editing an essay for 1.5 hours really pulls the strings out of you, and I just kinda lost it. *sigh* Cried for 10 minutes, and... finally some ideas came. It's pathetic! It's a stupid reason to go all emo over, but sometimes frustration just does that to me. If I go like this all the time, I'm not going to have any H20 left x__X

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I've been in such a hopeless sap lately... it's kind of interesting. Anyways, remember the song I talked about two entries ago called "Do You Dream of Me" by Michael W. Smith? WAAAHH~!! Found the song!!! It is sooo pretty! You all should download it... man, I love 1990's romance songs. Not to mention Crimson's new RanxKen AMV made me all giddy too. The song is mellow and sweet, and each scene suited the lyrics well. I LOVE the ending.... *floats*

Now... I will bomb you with bunches of MEMES...that I stole from numerous of people.

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

*grins* My favorite color.

The Weiss Kreuz Mary Sue Generator by agirlnamedgoo278
Name of Mary Sue
Coincidentally has the same power/weapon as	Aya/Ran
Is the long-time best friend of	Ken
Is madly in love with	Crawford
Person who is madly in love with her	Crawford
Wonderful Mary Sue feature	Amazing fashion sense
Quiz created with MemeGen!

LOL!!!! Hmm... I have the same power as Ran, because Ran taught me, and since I am long-time best friend of Ken, I will be a cupid them both to marry!!!! And... Crawford will be knocked out by my fashion sense...?

( More Fun Memes with Funny Results and Maphaps Funny commentaries )

Edit: Stole from misss_vampire ;3

Sachiko took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Longs for tenderness and for a sensitivity of feel..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

Holy smokes. Other than the sexual comment... this color quiz is freakin accurate.

First of all, I think my life has been shortened by 5 years, for I have literally failed my Calculus test today... I thought I was familiar with limits and derivatives. The chapter review was easy! But... the level of the test differed in difficulty so much. Everyone thought it was incredibly hard. I know I got an F already... if I can even survive with a C, it'd be so great already. I almost sobbed the lights out after class. *sigh* Hence I hate when people complain the same amount as me right now even on an effin A- >_>; But again... I tend to detach myself as much as possible from school... or just as less involved as possible.

Next, I am so worried about the people in Texas because of hurricane Rita! In particular, khuzay and zukkii... I tried calling today on the cellphone. No luck >_< Wahhh, Khukhu, Rosie, Dayna, and Ciara! Please be safe and evacuate! Yurusenai kara na! Man, you know what's very scary? The whole hurricane incident right now.. it is almost parallel to the video "Oil Storm", where it talks about oil prices increase because of hurricane attack in 2005 Labor holiday at New Orleans (yes, THAT accurate).

On some brighter notes... anime club has 93 sign-ups!! It was so cool... the freshmen were so enthusiastic about the club, and it was nice talking to otakus. *giggles* We need more obsessive fans like that around. They would make lovely officers...as we need new officers, since Erin, Ruki, and I will be graduating... Now, it's just a matter of burning Bleach episodes to DVD and show it to the club... it would be nice if we had projectors. *sigh* Sometimes I feel terrible ordering people around, especially since we officers all technically have the same power... and I feel by telling the other officers what should be ahead and what to do, I feel having more authority. But I need feedbacks and suggestions from them too... can't plan everything by myself, yet I don't want them to get annoyed.

For Essay as Lit, I also changed my topic "sci-fi vs fantasy" to "LOTR vs Harry Potter"...oh HP are going to kill me... as the compare/contrast essay is more in the lights of LOTR. Gomen nasai  >_< As much as I love both series, I do... get more out of LOTR than HP, and I do mean on the practical level. What do you think, minna?

._.; I need to write an autobiographical essay... based on a place. It kind of sucks that I can't think of places with significant things that happened... I mean, okay, things DID happen, but you know they'd want life-changing events and whatnot to be mentioned inside. So far, I listed: 1) Home/House, 2) Chinese Christian School, 3) Disneyland, 4) Haruka, and I'm contemplating on Anaheim.... talking about AX. But that would not be a suggested subject to talk about for a school paper. Anime is NOT a school subject, thank you.

I feel kind of dumb. I KNOW there are many positive things that happened, but I can't dig up specifics right now. And then there isn't exactly something tragic enough and comfortable enough to write an essay about. x_x *monotoned* Either too broad of stuff happened in one place and I can't choose, or I can't remember significant events about a place. *sigh* And even if I remember significant events, I don't recall the place much.

I am listening to the 『invisible sign -イス-』 drama (sequel to the game (。・ε・。)ス(。・ー・。)キ) right now. The beginning is surprisingly lighthearted! Haruka (Kousuke Toriumi) and Shun (Seki Tomokazu - who sounds extremely gentle as Shun @D@) are actually very good friends. Haruka/Shun? (I still wave my Makoto/Shun waves) Haruka is beginning to hear Makoto (Ishida Akira), and is Haruka the adopted child after Makoto died? Or they are really related? Uhm, but somehow, they are connected. I wish I could understand better. Hehehe... but, everything was fine until Shun mentioned the "other him", the dark Shun (also Seki, a very evil and aggressive Seki). I'm on track 10 right now, and Shun is conversing to dark Shun, who is laughing evilly ;_; waah, and Shun woke up, and this ghost is haunting him. OMG WHAT HAPPENED? DARK SHUN IS SUMMONED. Oh no ........................... Haruka! Makoto, save them T__T

And... few days ago, I overread my mom's computer screen. It seems like she and my relatives have been discussing about our Grandmother from my mom's side - 婆婆. She... has been diagnosed with severe lung disease - emphysemia. The email said that if we are able to convince her to stop smoking, there is a chance to decrease it and affected her as fast. I remember there was one time where we all gathered at her house to convince her once already, and she said she'd stop. Apparently, maybe she's smoking behind us all. What shocked me the most was when I read what my uncle wrote: My grandmother smoked to escape reality, but she is afraid of death.

Has all this been shadowed by the happiness my relatives always display? Why...did she want to escape reality? Well, my mom doesn't know I know. What can I do? It isn't easy to convince... what is the best way...